I got some laughs in the places I hoped for them but more
importantly it felt good to be up there. I like the more live arty moments, the more dark and surreal.
I like the fact that a lot of the text plays on more than one
level.
Like I said, it wasn't perfect. There is a lot to be learned. I messed up on some audience interaction. I picked on the first person
I saw and unfortunately she was someone who works at the venue. She was also clearly
uncomfortable and in the moment I didn't do enough to help
her. I could almost hear Kate Fox's voice in my ear... It was played too
much to the room and was too general when some of it could
have been used to really talk to people. Some of that was
nerves and all of it can be learned from.
The tapes are clunky but I hope not too distracting. I still
believe they are the right thing to have. They tie in to a certain nostalgia. They are imperfect
and fit in with the idea that I am in control of my environment; that I have
everything I need to populate my world. But I also need to be
able to flip that idea and bring the audience in. I don't want to
keep making the same point.
It will be very interesting to read the feedback. To see what people saw, liked, wanted more of and no doubt some of the stuff they didn't. I hope the majority of it is as positive as I felt coming out of the show.
Lots to think about.
A post show dissection with Ellie Harrison on Friday and I was still
feeling good. I'm at a place where I feel I can stop
retreading the same ground and move on. This hopefully
means I can try something totally new at Transform in April, which
would be riskier but more useful to me. I think I am past the
making stage and can now look forward to structuring, rehearsing,
molding, learning and polishing. It feels like a I am entering a new phase in the project.